(Just) A Question

"You know I always stay up without sleepin',
And think to myself:
Where do I belong forever,
In whose arms, the time and place?"

(My World - Avril Lavigne)

#100FactsAboutMe

#1 I use near-sighted eyeglasses since I was 13.
#2 I have a constant fear of big butterflies. The giant ones, I mean. With their dark brown wings.
#3 I can't stop biting my nails when I feel bored. It's gross, I know.
#4 I can't define my favorite color. I love blue and white since I was a kid, but I have lots of gray and brown shirts, and used to have so many black tees, some green tees....skip it.
#5 I can't type fast. Everytime I try to do it, I do lots of typos.
#6 I'm not a good driver. Full stop.
#7 I forget things in a wink. .... Wait, what did I say?
#8 Me and my mood is highly associated. And I've disappointed many people because of it.
#9 I've never been good at saying "hello". The idea of showing up from nowhere and hit a stranger or people I barely know and say "Hey! How are you?!" kinda freaks me out.
#10 I have random taste of music. I just listen to what people listen. I'm not an idealist in music.
#11 I often get tongue-twisted.
#12 I disliked the idea of washing hair when I was 13 that I let my hair unwashed for 7 days.
#13 I used to write a lot and have my own song and take good pictures.
#14 My favorite year? It's 2005 for sure.
#15 I used to have a BIG crush on my brother's friend when I was 14 and he was 18.
#16 I used to learn skateboarding with my brother, when I was 14, for only a few weeks.
#17 I always puked right after having breakfast when I was 9 or 10.
#18 I've always been crazy at World Cup. Germany is my all-time favorite.
#19 I used to be in a band.
#20 I have a fear of my English degrading.
#21 I love reading some people's timelines on Twitter. Sometimes I find it's inspiring.
#22 I've never had an enemy or the ones that I hate my whole life. Thank God.
#23 I hardly make 'best' friends.
#24 I don't easily feel comfort in a new community although you might see I easily mingle.
#25 I can't joke. If I say something and people laugh, well, I'd count it as a bonus.
#26 I adore some real people. What I mean with real is that they're not celebrities or something, even some of them comes from my daily life.
#27 I'm a stubborn and I don't really like people telling me what to do unless they're my parents or the ones I fully respect.
#28 I hate/love my nose. Hate because of the size, love because it's kinda pointed.
#29 I love the smell of the soil after the rain.
#30 I'm damn good at smelling and have the ability to memorize many people's smells.
#31 I can multiplying, plus-ing, minus-ing and dividing numbers without any pencil or paper or calculator but I suck at Mathematical subjects.
#32 I have a fear of being dumb. But the idea of studying is killing me, mentally.
#33 My addiction? It must be green tea. Hot/cold ocha, green tea ice cream and green tea frappe are the tastiest drinks a human being has ever invented.
#34 I hardly take notes from a lecture.
#35 My best idea to be with my boyfriend is having a quality talk somewhere quite with a good food, drink, music and ambiance. I mean, how can we have a quality talk when all you can hear is people's chattering?
#36 I love the smell of my boyfriend.
#37 I love to tickle. My boyfriend is my all-time favorite target.
#38 I hardly trust people. Too many what-ifs running through my head.
#39 I love reading novels....only when in the mood.
#40 I'm not a good RPG gamer. I get bored easily. That's why I only played Geo Challenge, Who Has The Biggest Brain and Word Challenge on Facebook. But currently CityVille wins my heart.
#41 My first bestfriend named Alfi. I met her on the first day of elementary school and remained friends till we were 14 that she had to move, and still kept in touch till we were 18. I wish we could still keep in touch..
#42 My hair's often a mess cause I hardly brush it.
#43 I never have a fixed schedule about anything. If I plan to always go to swimming once a month, it usually remains failed.
#44 I'm not easily homesick. But the worst homesick I've ever had is the one that I couldn't help that I texted my mom and said "Ma, kangen"
#45 I'm bad at taking care of anything and anyone.
#46 I don't like Bruno Mars. I wouldn't mind his cheesy lyrics if he were a 1940s singer, but it's 2011, dude. Get real.
#47 My girl crush? I'd say 'crushes' cause it should be Alexa Chung, Keira Knightley and Zooey Deschanel.
#48 The only movie that I've watched for 6 or 7 times is Black Hawk Down. It's my favorite.
#49 I'm not really into those glamorous and chick flick movies. I only watch it to encourage myself how to live my life to the fullest. (Living in NYC? Oh yeah, bring it on!)
#50 I download songs from people's #nowplaying tweets on Twitter quite oftentimes.
#51 I have this huge willing to travel the world. Someday. Amen to that.
#52 I pull my nose everytime before I go to sleep.
#53 I love finding people's similarities with their parents or siblings. It's just fun finding out where they got that big nose from.
#54 I love gaining weight (as long as it doesn't make me look too fat), but I hate having chubby cheeks. Want some? Go find babies, not teenagers.
#55 I can eat up to 5 times a day (it can be more during holidays). And snacks don't count.
#56 I haven't found it's fun using high heels. Till now, at least.
#57 I have a fear of me turning into a big fat lady in the future cause I'm not really into sports.
#58 I lose my respect for girls who work their asses off to have their bachelor degrees as soon as possible JUST to get married. But I wouldn't mind if it's master degree.
#59 I know I'm not an angel but I always have this thought of changing some closest persons to be better cause I know they can be. Weird.
#60 I love privacy. I keep things for myself, you keep things for yourself too.
#61 I love waking up my boyfriend through the phone. I bet he doesn't know how heaven it is to listen to his just-get-up voice.
#62 I often listen to old songs just to rebuild the moment of when I first listened to it. Or just to build my own moment in mind.
#63 I have vivid imagination of everything that sometimes I can feel it. Dramatic and way too imaginative, I know.
#64 I can feel it if people don't want me around.
#65 I have this strong feeling with my bestfriends. Not a Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants thingy, I mean for real.
#66 I often get Déjà vu.
#67 I easily get insecure in a community. Everytime this happens, I'd rather leaving than trying to fit in.
#68 I love cold weather.
#69 My room's always a mess. I'm really not into tidying up the room but once I do it, it'll be all tidied up with nothing's left.
#70 I love the smell of my dad's armpit.
#71 I often forget what people remember and remember what people forget.
#72 I always get headache right after being in a light rain.
#73 High-pitched voices of girls kinda annoy me.
#74 I'm emotionally weak, if you'd ever got to know me.
#75 I'm a strong believer of 'Law of Attraction' concept.
#76 Foot massage always feels heaven for me.
#77 I hate slow-walking people cause I walk fast.
#78 When I walk, I keep my head straight forward oftentimes. That's why I hardly notice when people wave at me in the crowd.
#79 And I don't really like crowded places. It wastes my energy out.
#80 I believe that when you meet someone with low energy while you're in high energy, they'll steal your energy out that you'll get some kind of 'tired' feeling.
#81 Flashbacks could bring my mood to the lowest level. But it's a guilty pleasure.
#82 I have troubled skin and hair. I hate it.
#83 I write birthday wishes by myself only to people I truly care about. I mean on social network.
#84 No matter how many times I've changed my hairstyle, it always looks similar to me.
#85 I don't really like people who are afraid of getting bad marks.
#86 I believe that the only one who can bring you down is yourself.
#87 I used to have lots of short stories written by me when I was in elementary school.
#88 The first song written by me was when I was 10. About a sunshine in the morning.
#89 I never think Zac Efron is hot. Never. Full stop.
#90 The hottest male alive? Bradley Cooper. Yum.
#91 For me, male models do look gorgeous but never hot.
#92 I hate girls who do crazy diet. Eat right and be healthy, not eat less and be skinny. Because, quoted from Peter Griffin from Family Guy's tweet, you have plenty of time to be skinny when you're dead.
#93 Sometimes I get this shock-like feeling when I'm listening to a song and have this vivid flashback and how I wish I could turn back the time.
#94 And I hate people who narrow down the term 'flashback' as ex-boyfriend memories.
#95 I love fashion bloggers' style but not really into Diana Rikasari's style.
#96 I have a folder of Alexa Chung's pictures in my laptop. That doesn't make me look like a lesbo, right?
#97 I love washing hands and hand sanitizer. I feel much more hygiene afterward.
#98 I love wearing guys tees. My brothers', daddy's or even my boyfriend's.
#99 I know my English is not perfect but wrong grammar kinda irritates me.
#100 I sometimes snore and grind my teeth while I sleep. And I really hate it.