I've Got No Time For Feeling Sorry

"We still live in the same town, well don't we?
But I don't see you around anymore
I go to all the same places, not even a trace of you
Your days are numbered at 24

And I'm getting bored waiting 'round for you
We're not getting any younger
And I won't look back cause there's no use
It's time to move forward

I feel no sympathy, you live inside a cave
You barely get by, the rest of us are trying
There's no need to apologize
I've got no time for feeling sorry

I try not to think of what might happen
When your reality, it finally cuts through
Well as for me I got out and I'm on the road
The worst part is that this could be you

And you know it too
You can't run from your shame
You're not getting any younger
And time keeps passing by
But you wave it away
It's time to roll over

And all the best lies
They are told with fingers tied
So cross them tight, won't you promise me tonight
If it's the last thing you do you'll get out

I feel no sympathy, you live inside a cave
You barely get by, the rest of us are trying
There's no need to apologize
I've got no time for feeling sorry.."

(Feeling Sorry - Paramore)

i never get the point of revenge and i never put any vengeance in everyone. i swear its true. the thing is i just never forget about whatever people do to me, whether its good or bad. and this one; its for you who wasted me away twice and now you're in vain. the whole damn world knows you are gone have moved on but they'll just never forget your past ... just like i do. may you sleep well in every night of yours cause we all know you're having your karma.
(note that i'm not cursing, complaining or whatsoever in this post. i'm only writing.)

Romance and Relationship

single (not comparable)

Positive single

Comparative not comparable

Superlative none (absolute)

1. Not accompanied by anything else.

   Can you give me a single reason not to leave right now?

2. Not divided in parts.

   The potatoes left the spoon and landed in a single big lump on the plate.

3. Designed for the use of only one.

   a single room

4. Designed for a single use; not reusable.

   the anti-aircraft rocket is fired from a single use launch platform.

5. Not married nor dating

   Josh put down that he was a single male on the dating website.

6. (botany) Having only one rank or row of petals.

so, i'm back in this blogging thingy after leaving it meaningless for, like, ever ever after. well, not that long, though. okay, only a few months. but since i'm kinda addicted to writing, its like for ever for me. skip it.
so, what makes me post this 'single' word meaning? nothing, just kinda describe what i've been for almost 2 months. (yeah, i broke up. again. dont worry, i dont do suicide nor drinking pesticide. only guiltiness surrounded for few weeks.) hell to the yeah, i am single. for now. but in my lifetime (so far), i never find it wrong in being one. well, whats so wrong, eh? but these days i'm kinda thinking about what makes my relationship never lasted long, while the people here, around me, have been with their partners since, like, the invention of electricity. one of my college friends had been with her BF for 4 years (bottom line, FOUR YEARS), but still ended up with a breaking-up. but i mean, hey, its four years! so they'd been together since i was still in Junior High. cool, isn't it? while the longest relationship i've ever had is only 6 months. bottom line, six months. and the last relationship only lasted for 3 months. bottom line, three months. kinda sucks knowing i kinda suck in relationships.. *sighs* anyway, does anybody mind if i post about romance or relationship this time?
until one day, i told my auntie i had a fling on this guy. we've been texting for, like, some weeks. i told her he seemed nice, kind and those sort of things, but then she said, "kamu itu ga ada arah kalo nyari cowo." only one sentence consisted of some words but it made me get some kind of shock. to be honest. it got me thinking. and i was like, "damn, she's right." i never had any intention to anyone this long and i think thats the main reason why my relationships never lasted long. what to be called this? pathetic? silly? yeah, i'd said "i'm only 18, after all." but intention in relationship doesn't always mean marriage, right? (beside there are hella lots of types of relationships) it could be how long you expect you're gonna be with your partner, how committed you're both gonna be, or how important your partner means to you (either he/she be the top on your life priority or he/she be the top on your future wishlist). it means a lot. holy cow, how could i just realize it now? long after i'd been in some relationships?
the conclusion, after all, is i think i'm gonna fix this. either its with this guy or not, i'm gonna try to find the 'intention' to my so-on relationship. what about if i dont find one? oh puh-lease Jess, you'll never know til you have tried. (copied from the wisdom words in the bottom line of that X brand notebook)