Farewell

"As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.."

i used to think how fun a graduation will be. i used to think how exciting a freshman year will be. i used to think how funny a picture can be. but now, i dont wanna think one of those thoughts.. i dont wanna think about the graduation day (yeah, i do want to graduate though!) but well, i really dont want those farewells. i hate farewells. and when i think about farewells, it gets me thinking about how far you guys will live for the next few years. how long we will not meet each other for the next few years. and how im gonna miss you all like i will never have anyone like you anymore.. really, how time does go so fast..
when i was in the 10 grade, i used to think "when will the graduation be? ohh how im sick of all these things! the assignments, the uniforms, ... all of these school stuffs!" yeah, i was sick of being a high school student. dreaming about a cool freshman year. thinking about putting away the school's uniform. and when i was in 11 grade, i used to think "hey, we only get 1 more left! yeah! well, a year seems to be much longer though.. gosh!" and when in the 12 grade (like now) i dont wanna think about whats laid ahead.. (for what i said the bad things, of course)
everything's changing from year to year. the surroundings, the thoughts, the personalities, the school, even the people themselves. and for the farewell party last night, i always told myself "it wont make me cry this time, i will not cry. i will only cry by the graduation day, i guess. i will not cry tonight." and voila! i didnt cry! but i got this kind-of shock inside of me. like what i always get when i cant cry.. and the shock thing gets more and more when we watched the fireworks together. it was awesome, i confess, and it was much more than fun, and we were yelling like crazy, laughing like no one couldnt stop us, hugging each other, and i got this shock. i was laughing while shocking and yelling while shocking. i always hate to feel it..
i was chatting online with one of my BFs when i got home. we talked about many things and when it came to confessing what we felt on the farewell party, we both confessed we were scared. and now i just realize a line of the Graduation(Friends Forever) song by the Vitamin C..

"And there was me and you and well we got real blue,
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me,
We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared,
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair.."

and it makes me wanna hear the song for the first time together with all of my friends before we have to go.. (shit, i got this shock-like thing again! and im scared again..)

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives,
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25.
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,
No more hanging out because we're on a different track.
And if you got something that you need to say,
You better say it right now because you don't have another day.

Because we're moving on and we cant slow down.
These memories are playing like a film without sound.
And I keep thinking of that night in June,
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and well we got real blue,
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me,
We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared,
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair.

And this is how it feels.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school,
Still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye,
Keep on thinking it's our time to fly,

And this is how it feels.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

La,la,la,la...yeah, yeah...la, la, la, la
We will still be,
Friends Forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow? (somehow)
I guess I thought that this would never end,
And suddenly it's like we're women and men.
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round,
Or will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye,
Keep on thinking it's our time to fly.


As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever.

As we go on,
We remember,
All the times we,
Had together,
And as our lives change,
come whatever,
We will still be
Friends Forever..."