Flattery

(*drums pounding*)

eng ing eng~

ini wujud surat ga penting itu..

kenapa bisa ga penting? begini ceritanya..

dua hari yang lalu gue mendengar anak pembantu gue yang bernama Rio (yeah Rio, i write down your name here! *standing ovation*) lari-lari sambil manggilin nama gue, lalu dia ngasih sepucuk surat ke gue. begitu gue baca amplopnya, gue bingung. "IBII?" apa yang mendorong IBII untuk mengirim surat ke gue? lebih-lebih gue ngerasa mereka ga ada alasan apapun untuk ngirim surat ke gue. gue ga pernah daftar kuliah kesana, ga pernah merasa cukup pintar buat daftar buat beasiswa disana, apalagi surat-suratan sama warga sana. ga mungkin kan ada secret admirer yang kurang kerjaan ngirim surat ke gue pake amplop IBII? (well, that is way too much)

jadi, didorong rasa penasaran yang kuat, rasa ingin tahu yang menggebu-gebu (apa juga bedanya?), gue buka amplop surat misterius ini. kata demi kata gue baca dengan saksama (ngarep kalo-kalo ada guru gue yang pernah khilaf daftarin gue buat dapetin beasiswa di IBII), kata demi kata gue cerna dengan sempurna dan ... voila! surat ini cuma sekedar surat promosi jurusan-jurusan yang ada di IBII.. yeah, you guys did a good job! that was enough to make me flattered ... for a second.

at least gue punya satu nilai moral untuk hal ini: gue mesti lebih banyak belajar tentang ways of advertizing. just so i wont be flattered for only a second anymore..

Konstantine

"I can't imagine all the people that you know

And the places that you go

When the lights are turned down low

And I don't understand

All the things you've seen

But I'm slipping in between

You and your big... dreams

it's always you in my big dreams

And you tell me

That it's over

Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover

And you're restless

And I'm naked

You've got to get out

You can't stand to see me shaking

no, could you let me go

I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future

So you say

the present's just a pleasant

Interruption to the past

And you don't want to look much closer

'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope

You had sent into the sky by now had... crashed

and it did because of me

And then you bring me home

Afraid to find out that you're alone, no

And I'm sleeping in your living room

But we don't have much room

To live

I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar

Maybe cross the country

Become a rockstar

And there was hope in me

That I could take you there

But damn it you're so young

But I don't think I care

and if I hurt you then i'm sorry

please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home

'Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no

And I'm dreaming in your living room

But we don't have much room

To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs

Doesn't she look good

Standing in her underwear?

And I was thinking, what I was thinking

But we've been drinking

And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs

And all that I could do

Was touch her long blonde hair

And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking

That these nights when we were drinking

No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K

And I can like it

It's to dying in another's arms

and why i had to try it

It's to jimmy eat world

and those nights in my car

when the first star you see

may not be a star

I'm not your star

Isn't that what you said?

what you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes

just to lie with my mistakes

and live with what I did to you

All the hell I put you through

I always catch the clock it's 11:11

And now you want to talk

it's not hard to dream

You'll always be my Konstantine

My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do

No, They'll never hurt you like I do

No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head

with all the pretty things she did

Hey, You know, you keep me up in bed

This is to a girl who got into my head

with all these fucked up things I did

Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed

My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream

We played out on this movie screen

And I said,

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home

And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no

No,And then you'll kiss me in your living room, oh

I know you miss me in your living room

Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room

We don't have much room

I said, does anybody need that room?

Because we all need a little more room

To live

...My Konstantine."

its one of my favorite song ever. its Konstantine by Something Corporate. the first thing made me fall in love with this song is the piano playing which is really beautiful. and it was played by the vocalist himself. and the second one is that this song is the longest song ive ever heard so far. its 9:35 minutes length. even Jesus of Suburbia by Green Day is only 9:10 length, if im not mistaken. a friend of mine who gave me a listen to this song told me about the background story of it, which made me fall for the song more. i even googled it! okay, let me share..

the band's frontman, named Andrew McMahon, had a girlfriend named Krystal whom he cheated on. the relationship was when the girl was still in high school and he hadnt signed to any labels yet. but one day she got him f**king some other girl while he was drunk (check out the part "you've gotta get out, you cant stand to see me shaking") and then they broke up. he wished he was lucky enough that they could get back together anymore ("wake up lying in patch of four leaf clover"). he got signed to Drive-Thru records and wished that he could take her on the tour ("become a rockstar. and there was hope in me that i could take you there"), but he couldnt because she was still in high school ("but dammit, you're so young").
well, some people said that they got back together once, but for another breaking-up. and then Andrew was diagnosed of cancer, almost at the same time as the girl got married with another guy. that was why it put him in a great guilt that he wrote the song, because he thought if he never cheated on her then he might be the one who would be standing under the bell with her. it made him always regretting ("they'll never hurt you like i do").
the good thing about him is that he never tried to go any further in their relationship because he thought she was too young and he really loved her that he didnt want anything more (based on the part "doesnt she look good standing in her underwear? ... and all that i could do was touch her long blonde hair")
this song is like playing on words, actually. like Konfusion with a K, Konstant with a K (but it might be more bacause the girl named Krystal with K, its usually written with C anyway), that some people think constant is a thing he wishes their relationship was, because they broke up quite a few times.
and for the title Konstantine, some assumed that maybe its because of the girl who was a religious one (hence he never tried to go further with her), because Constantine is the name of a Roman king who was very religious.
about the 11:11 clock, its to show that he really hoped he could get back together with her because there's a belief that on 11:11 is when the angels come showing up to listen to your wishes and then make them come true.
well, people assumed this and that about the song, so i dont really know the real story behind it. but i think the infos ive got are more than enough to explain..

What a Wonderful World

the exam's finally over. it makes me feel like whoa! days get brighter now..

("What a Wonderful World" song playing)

a burden has finally been taken away from me. now all i can do is just waiting for the results. and i hate waiting. especially when its all about a long-time waiting. and it gets worse when its all about your future. yeah, the results of the exam will be my future. sounds too drama, but thats the truth.

okay, forget about the waiting. lets have some fun now! (starts humbling)

"I see trees of green, red roses too

I see them bloom for me and you

And I think to myself what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue and clouds of white

The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night

And I think to myself what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky

Are also on the faces of people going by

I see friends shaking hands, saying how do you do

They're really sayin' I love you

I hear babies cry, I watch them grow

They'll learn much more than I'll ever know

And I think to myself what a wonderful world

Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world..."

Grammar-and-Spelling Freak

English Professor Material

You could correct College-Level paper! Your spelling and Grammar are Perfect!

yeah, i took an "are you grammar and spelling freak?" quiz on facebook and the result is what has been mentioned above. di samping pertanyaan-pertanyaan di kuis itu yang memang ga susah, gue rasa hasil kuis itu memang bener. cause i do think i am a grammar-and-spelling freak. gue merasa risih kalo baca tulisan yang ejaannya salah, apalagi kalo dalam bahasa inggris. memang gue bukan ahli tata bahasa inggris, but it really annoys me. or is it to show that i'm a perfectionist? karena kalimat-kalimat bahasa inggris yang ditulis ga jelas grammar nya pun bikin gue berpikir "what does it mean?" yah sebagian besar gue masih ngerti sih maksud si penulis apa, i'm Indonesian anyway.

kalo kita mau nulis status di facebook, setelah nama pemilik profil, kata "is" pasti udh tercantum dengan manisnya. seperti status beberapa "temen" facebook gue: "Xxxx is wanna say blahblahblah" dan gue pun berpikir "Si Xxxx diinginkan untuk mengatakan blahblahblah?" sebagian besar orang Indonesia memang semestinya paham maksudnya, tapi buat orang bule? cuma sebagian kecil yang ngerti gue rasa. hal begini mungkin kedengerannya sepele, tapi bayangin kalo hal-hal sepele ini terjadi pada skripsi atau CV? apa tetep bakal jadi sesuatu yang sepele? karena hal ini bisa jadi menunjukkan kepribadian si penulis skripsi atau CV atau apalah-itu yang ga teliti. apa ada perusahaan yang mau merekrut orang yang ga teliti? oke, gue mulai sok tua sekarang..

gue akuin semua tulisan gue yang berbahasa inggris memang belum 100% bener dalam ejaan dan grammar nya, but at least i'm trying to. kalopun gue ragu sama grammar atau ejaan yang gue tulis itu, gue ambil alternatif lain: kata-kata itu ga usah dipake. yeah, i confess i hate to be blamed, walopun itu cuma mengenai hal-hal kecil, seperti ejaan misalnya. because it makes me feel like a dumb, and i dont wanna be one. tapi, gue juga punya beberapa kata yang gue masih rancu tentang countable atau uncountable nya. misal: holiday. is it "holiday is a good day" or "holiday is good days"? atau pemakaian day atau days nya itu diliat dari berapa hari liburan itu berlangsung? kalo cuma sehari maka pake day, tapi kalo lebih baru pake days? well then, it shows that i am not an english expert. yet.

It's All About Life (and Us)

so, here it is...

kartu ini bikin gue merasa sedikit lebih dewasa beberapa hari terakhir ini. anyway, what card is this? yes, you name it! ini kartu tanda peserta UN gue. with my name on it, my not-so-cool photo, on it, my birthday, even my headmaster's name on it! yeah, this card is all i need on april 20-24. okay, forget about the use.

jadi, apa yang bikin perasaan makin-dewasa dalam diri gue mencuat? okay, this card makes me think.. think a lot. dengan gue mendapat kartu ini di tangan, itu berarti masa SMA gue akan berakhir sebentar lagi, dalam 2 bulan ke depan mungkin? dan pisah dengan temen-temen yang selama ini gue temuin setiap harinya itu ga mudah. oke, gue bukan tipe cengeng, but well, when i think about it, something in my heart kinda get shocked. yeah, gue ga lebay, but that's just the truth. and it makes me think "gila ya, 3 taon bener-bener ga kerasa kali ini.." and how i wish i could turn back the time.. okay, i'm being overdramatic now..

perasaan "nyesek" yang gue rasain itupun makin kerasa "nyesek" ketika gue harus menghadapi kenyataan bahwa semua temen-temen gue bakal kuliah di tempat berbeda, bahkan negara yang berbeda. yeah, sebagian memang masih kuliah di kota-kota yang ga jauh dari Lampung sih. but still, it gets me thinking "seberapa deketnya kita satu sama lain juga ga mungkin kan kita tetep bisa kumpul tiap weekend kaya sekarang? with all the college stuffs, and maybe your boyfriends. life will be more about selfishness." ga munafik, memang begitu kan? that's university life..

but for whatever it will be, for how far we'll be separated, for how long we will not meet, i know y'all the best buddies ever! (:

Brand New Start

so, i have made this new account here. why? well, the old one's kinda full of errors and i dont really like it. and -okay, i confess- i've got a new name for this. yeah, the more sounds-cool one.
yeah, i'll write about anything as many as i could.. (: